I say I'm okay with letting go, but actually, not so.
So here I am, sharing a song with you guys again, another Mandarin song, 我最親愛的 My Dearest, by 張惠妹 A Mei.
(I hope non-mandarin readers won't find my constant Chinese posts too annoying.)
English translations are below, not direct translations, but something like a personal understanding of the song that I tried to express in English.
To listen to this song on Youtube, here's the link.  I hope you'll like it.

我想你一定喜欢 现在的我学会了你最爱的开朗 

想起你的模样 有什么错 还不能够被原谅 

世界不管怎样荒凉 爱过你就不怕孤单 

我最亲爱的 你过的怎么样 

没我的日子 你别来无恙 

依然亲爱的 我没让你失望 

让我亲一亲 像朋友一样 

虽然离开了你的时间 比一起还漫长 我们总能补偿 

因为中间空白的时光 如果还能分享 也是一种浪漫 

关系虽然不再一样 关心却怎么能说断就断 

English translations:

I'm sure you'll be happy to know, I have now learnt to do what you like most about me: smile beautiful smiles.
When I think of you, I think, what wrong have we done that couldn't be forgiven?
The world could be empty, but I'm not afraid to be lonely, because once upon a time, I was in love with you.

My dearest, how are you?  These days without me, is everything fine?  

My dear, I've not let you down.  Give me a kiss, just like old friends.

Though the days we spent without each other, are more than those spent together,
we'll fill those blanks in between, sharing our stories with each other.  Isn't that romantic too?
Our friendship now differs from what we could have had before,
but my love and care, how is it possible that they stop just like that?

How many of you remember this?  "And then I'd Smile"

When I told him he's one in a million, I meant to say he's special, he's different from all the other people I know.  When he jokingly got mad at only being one in a million and told me I'm one in 6.7 billion, I thought he meant I was one and only.  It was one of the sweetest things anyone ever told me, and I genuinely believed I could be his one in 6.7 billion.

Now, 0.4 billion people later, I find out it only meant that he was probably feeling poetic that morning.

If you have been following my posts, you'd know there's this friend-crush guy I've been crazy about for years.  Recently, we talked things out a bit and it turns out that he wasn't having mutual feelings for me.  I didn't have a good time accepting the fact at first, 'cause I seriously thought we'd have a chance together.  I couldn't be sure there'll be another guy I'd like as much as I liked him.  I don't think another guy will understand me the way I think he does, accept my broken self the way he does, and build me up when I was torn like he built me up from scratch.  I don't think I could love another person as innocently and unselfishly as I loved him.  No adult relationship can have such pure love as compared to a childhood crush that grew and developed over a period of about ten years, could it?  But now I'm starting to let this sink in.  How lucky am I to have friendship that's so golden?  A friend that has been there and will be there throughout the happy and sad times, isn't that lucky enough?  How could I even complain when there's absolutely everything to be grateful of?

The little girl couldn't stop crying.

"My teddy's lost at the railway station,

it didn't come home with me,

how will I sleep tonight?

The monsters will come and bite!"

Hush, my girl,

if you'll just lift your head, 

you'll see Papa painted angels in the clouds

above you up in the sky,

they'll take care of you."

Papa patted her to sleep 

and planted a kiss on her forehead,

no one can hurt her now.

I'm like the girl who lost her only favourite teddy, feeling scared and lonely.  But my Father in heaven knows what He's doing, He sends his angels to be with me, till one day, He'll give me a new teddy that'll I've love even more. Or maybe it could be a new book, or race car? I have no idea, but I'm sure it'll be the best.  I don't understand why some things happen sometimes, but I am learning to trust Him fully.

p.s.  
Dear Readers, I'll make it a point to update and post more often now.
Thank you for still visiting all this time when I was inactive on Blogger.  :')

.leave.a.hug.

我感恩肩膀感觉酸的时候，身边有人愿意替我分担重量
还有些人，不是很会按摩，却愿意尽量尝试让我能够舒服些

Best friends are people you can discuss your retirement plans with. :) 

♥

你现在想着谁     有没有和我相同的感觉

固执等着谁     却惊觉已无法倒退

天上的星星虽多，亮光却永远比不上心目中的月亮。

阳光的拥抱虽然温暖，我想念的却是冷默安静的月光。

.leave.a.hug.

My math is so bad, I can't even measure how much I missed you.

你说，下次见面的时候，我欠你一个拥抱。

我想，如果有天我们真的抱住了，我会抓紧。

.leave.a.hug.

其实我多希望湿的不是你的枕头，是我的肩膀。

How I wished it wasn't your pillow that was drenched in your tears, I wished you wet shoulder instead.

知足就是快乐，呼吸就是幸福，心跳就是你们。