Thursday, July 1, 2010I've been feeling low for a few weeks, and now I'm thinking it should come to an end. :)
I have quite a lot of sorries to say, actually.
Sorry I was greedy, I asked for so much more when you already gave all that you can.
Sorry I was stubborn, I held on to you for dear life when you had to go, and I made things difficult for us all.
Sorry I was too silly, thinking I could do magic and make things right again, I should have outgrown fairytales so long ago.
Sorry I didn't listen when you were doing the talking. I made you repeat everything, so many times, and I was lucky you were patient with me.
Sorry I was selfish, I focused way too much on my own pain, I forgot that you're actually hurting too, just like me.
I'm learning to let go now.
I'll be letting go, bit by bit, day by day.
I know it'll take time, maybe also a few break downs, but I'll be fine. I've almost always been a fast learner.
I'll hang on, I'll move on.
'Cause I have insurance anyways, I'm not afraid of getting hurt. It's just part of growing up.
I'm lucky to have friends who put up with me all this while.
You don't have to tell me, but I know I've been bothering all of you so much, telling you those stories you probably never wanted to listen to.
You don't have to tell me, but I know I've been acting pretty stupid and kiddish and you're probably quite fed up with me.
I don't think I could stand me if I were you.
You don't have to tell me, but I need to tell you how much I appreciate it.
Thank you. Really. :)
P.S. Labeled this under 'for a friend', but it actually refers to quite a few here.
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